i’m really glad it helped at all. depression is a shitty thing for real. all mental illness is (or like most, i dont know. maybe there’s a cool mental illness out there. like synesthesia i’m sure that’s fun for a little while maybe).

i try & answer everything i can about depression/anxiety/addiction/etc those kinds of things just cause one of the worst parts of those problems (particularly depression/anxiety and especially if you’re younger or experiencing it for the first time) is you feel really alone and alienated because of it and dont know where to turn/who to talk to. i’m sure other people who are trained to help might be able to help more, but if i can talk about my own experiences (since i’ve been experiencing it all for a long time now - my whole life more or less) and tell someone about it to try and help them get perspective for find ways to cope/deal i’m very happy to do so.

it’s different for everyone and all i can do is try and give support & also share what helps me/what i do in case someone else finds it helps them too. remembering that it’s something constantly in motion is the most important thing i think. i’m glad you’re keeping it in mind. just try and remember that even if it never gets fixed (and i dont want to be bleak, but i dont think it’s something that can ever be fully fixed) it will get better - and it might stay better or at least more manageable for a long time. it’s always back and forth, and the biggest thing i know i have control over & i think other people do too if how you deal with it and approach it. it’s really really hard but it helps to try and keep that in mind, definitely. 

i really hope you feel better again soon, but until then i hope you’re able to cope and get through it. finding someone you can trust to talk to about it - whether it’s a friend, family member, or someone like a therapist/etc - can be very helpful if you need an outlet, but always feel free to message me again about anything, ill keep trying to answer everything i get on the subject on any of my blogs.